Thank goodness for our NHS

I have been waiting months now for my injection into two vertebrae in my neck to help with the pain I am getting.  Making sure an appointment did not arrive in the post whilst we were away  I rang the appointments centre and told them.  All was well I believed so imagine my shock when we arrived home from our cruise to see a letter stating that I could go in on the 22nd July, yikes......... we are away in the motor home touring Scotland, as I clearly told the girl on appointments.  Something went wrong so I was gutted that it may be I go to the back of the queue for refusing a date.  Well somebody was on my side.

I rang the pain management clinic and spoke to a lovely lady and asked if I could be given a cancellation.  Problem was I needed to know five days in advance as I was to come off warfarin and go onto self injections of heparin.  Was the time scale workable.  Yes it was, they had just that morning had a cancellation so today with an INR of the accepted 1 I went down for my injections.

The whole procedure went very smoothly and I had a laugh with the surgeon that carried out the procedure and the staff.  They said I was easy to work with which pleased me.  It wasn't a painful procedure, more uncomfortable as he needed to press down on the very place where my neck hurt to begin with.  Well actually that isn't  quite true.  While I thought he would inject into the side of my neck on the left he explained that no he wouldn't .  Pain is a strange thing, where we perceive the pain is coming from is often not the place so he actually went into my spine on the right.  He was very pleased as he showed me on the x ray where the needle went right into the joints of my spine, a brilliant result.  So after a short, very short in my case rest as I had not had any sedation it was home and here I am.  I have to rest today and not allowed to drive for 24 hours.

It can take up to 4 weeks for the full effects to work and I was also told that it may feel worse before it gets better.  I can go with that, just grateful for our wonderful NHS staff who made it all go swimmingly. So another job done.

Heart monitor results

Well not good but not unexpected either.  I have said I knew I was deteriorating so when the results came back and said there was a deterioration in how my heart was coping, sometimes slowing down, palpitations, speeding up too fast, all of these things made sense to me.  So where do we go from here?   My local doctor was going to talk to Sheffield about the results and also send them on.  The secretary of two of my specialists have told me that they will make sure these results get put in front of the two I have been seeing most of recently, Robin who ordered the tests and Charlie, my doctor who is in charge of the study I am on and who rang my local doctor to try to chase up the results.  I am due in for my last study appointment in the middle of September for two days and I have no doubt something will be decided on and will begin to be put in place then.

Very good U tube explanation of ph for the newbies

Some of the new ones that come onto Facebook have difficulty in showing or telling their friends just what PH means.  Many have family and friends who believe they are "putting it on" so I was pleased to see this on u tube today and would ask them to show it to anyone who has no concept of ph.

Pulmonary Hypertension: A challenging cause of shortness of breathK. Akaya Smith, MD, a pulmonologist at Penn Medicine, discusses dyspnea, shortness of breath, and how it is one of the most common presenting conditions of p...youtube.com

Even for the patient themselves it does give an insight into just how our hearts and lungs work and why we are so compromised when we get this disease.  It is rather a long explanation but it has diagrams and the woman talking about the condition, and indeed other conditions that affect the heart and lungs is very good at explaining it in a clear and concise manner.

Scotland

As we head off to Scotland for around three weeks I have once more got to have my INR done en route.  The first time we went we had to do this and it worked well.  I hope it works as smoothly this time and there are no complications with trying to get my INR up to an acceptable level, there shouldn't be but it is always a worry when we are not in familiar places.

Packing again, and how I hate this but at least once I have decided on the things I need, very little as we do have laundries at most sites I shall leave it up to my better half to load up the motor home and I shall go over to Leeds to meet up with my son and hopefully his delightful girlfriend Anna for a bit of a natter as we won't see one another for almost a month.

America

Once again the pure evil that was carried out in Dallas four days ago is so hard to comprehend.  It appears that this was about race and creed, blacks versus whites.  Yes I  know there is so much more underlying but I am not a journalist just somebody sad to see killings such as these.  Where will all this madness end.  I wish somebody had the answer but I don't  believe there is one.  Every day when I open my paper or read the news I am expecting to see such terrible things, such atrocities carried out in the name of religion or colour, it saddens me.  I fear for our children growing up in a world like this.  My son told me I wanted an ideal of going back to the 1950's, well yes he is right.  There has never been a time in history when killing didn't go on but now it is just so common place we all expect it and just turn the page, or turn over the news.  The world has become a place of corruption and argument in almost every avenue.  That to me is the saddest thing.

Andy Murray

Andy Murray went on the win Wimbledon again for the second time  This Scot, who I make no bones about saying I just love did Great Britain proud.  He has learnt how to accept the publicity, how to talk to the people behind the cameras and now comes across as a nice guy and a great ambassador for tennis.  Well this is how I think but my doctor will say differently, she can't stand him!  Oh well I love him and am pleased he came through.  Since becoming a husband and a father he has grown up more and become more comfortable in his skin, i hope he goes on to win many more grand slams and another Wimbledon winner, we shall see.  I hope so.

Sports Day

How I would have loved to have been able to go to this as it is the first sports day for Izzy but alas I am told no, I need to rest and anyway I struggle to stand for any length of time.  Grandad has gone and her mommy so I look forward to the tales when they return afterwards.  I love my grandaughter very much but would be the first to admit she will never be an athlete, she takes after me in this regard.  My only hope is that she enjoys it and doesn't get upset if she gets beaten and that she always congratulates the winner with good grace.

Archie

This is our baby, born during the horrific floods in Calderdale in the bathroom of his grandparents house.

How time flies.  Now six months and a few days old he has two teeth, loves to pull himself up and stands holding onto furniture, rolls over, but not yet mastered the art of rolling back and has the most beautiful big eyes.  He is a sunny natured baby and I am so very proud of him.  His mommy Jess takes him swimming too so that is a great thing to do at such an early age.  I just love this little man.

Update of sports day

One first, one second and one third.  One very proud grandma here writing this!  So unexpected!

Rory her boyfriend is not in love with her now, he loves Violet and Daisy but Harry still loves Izzy so she is fine about that. Kids, one for the journal.You can see how happy she was at her sports day, she is the one with her mouth open wide with laughter.

Onwards then to swimming and she did so well that we are all soon proud of her and she is taking the intensive swimming lessons over the school holiday for one week.  Well worth the effort to raise her game.  

Ending on a funny, well I think so

When I had finished having the procedure on my neck the nurse pushed me into a side room.  She asked me if I could raise my legs and was shocked as my legs were immediately raised almost to her face.  She obviously didn't expect this but what she said next made me realise why she didn't expect it.  She then said "well you can get dressed now but I make no apologies for saying this to you.  I always stay in the room when really old people like you are getting dressed after having the injections in case they take a turn!"  I always thought I looked ok for my age.  Now old maybe to her, she is around late thirties but REALLY OLD, I ask you.  I bit my lip to stop from laughing.  Wonder what she will think if people consider her really old when she reaches my age.  

Warm love to each and every one of you and thank you for the likes and shares.  All keep well.

Carole xxx

Back to reality

Nice start to our holiday 

One lovely thing was that we left home a day before our cruise so we were able to spend a lovely evening over dinner with members of our family, David and Jan catching up with all family news.  Onwards then to an overnight stay in a hotel and then we met up with some special friends of ours from when we lived in Spain.  They have a home too in Poole so we made a slight detour and visited with them  for an hour before we moved on to join our ship.    In one of my earlier blogs I say how Freda made a 40 mile trip to visit just for a drink when we were on holiday  in Looe so it was delightful that we were able to meet up with them both and catch up, this time on Spanish news.  All in all the two visits made a perfect start to our holiday.  

So home again after our cruise around the Baltic's.  Our ship was called Celebrity Eclipse and it is a really beautiful ship indeed.  We had a lovely state room  that had plenty of room for my mobility scooter and one of the best bathrooms I have ever had on a ship, and I have been on many.  Our veranda was quite large and there was plenty of room for  sunbathing on it if we didn't wish to take up one of the many beds and loungers up on the pool decks.  Alas I forgot about the effect of my meds in the sun and I ended up with a very red sunburnt face.  It isn't as though I was lying  in the sun, I deliberately didn't, always making sure I was ensconced under a cabana and out of the sun but the power of even a little sun does us much damage.  It is a lesson learnt and I shall make sure I am always even more careful than I am now.

I wasn't TOO bad on the cruise but alas my health did not allow me to attend any of the shows that were put on in the theatre in the evening.  After my meal I hastened back to my bed to rest up ready for another day.  I missed out on going into Tallin as I really didn't feel up to it, in fairness this trip was on the day following my two very hectic days in the amazing St Petersburg and this was so exhausting for even the most able bodied so no surprise then that I needed a duvet day to recover.

St Petersburg was the highlight of the trip and the beauty of the places we saw were breathtaking, magnificent, outstanding, amazing, oh I could go on and on.  I was fortunate to be provided with a "pusher", his name being Alexi.  He was a man aged around 23 and this was his job, to take people wth walking difficulties around all the sites.  He was so professional.  He always made sure he parked me directly in front of any sites to be seen and he never once ran into the back of anybody with the chair.  He politely asked people to move and they did with ease.  We had been fortunate to book with the company we did for the tours as many of them took 40 people in on big busses.  Nightmare as trying to get tickets and keep track of so many just delayed everything.  Our guide had taken us early to the one that she knew would fill up quickly, The Hermitage and so we were able to get around with ease whilst the queues were forming longer and longer outside.  There were only six of us in this tour so it all run like clockwork.  

Have posted a couple of pics here of some of the places we saw but to be honest no picture can do this city justice.  

The Hermitage

Catherine's Palace was just out of this world with the amber room and the gold room where Elton John often hires this room to entertain friends, very impressive it was too! 

A lovely trip over to Peterhoff was a huge success as this was a truly beautiful palace, an amazing site to see and the many, many fountains, some trick ones as Peter the Great loved playing tricks and he designed them to fool people and get them wet!  

It all just looked so magnificent.  The fountains switched on at exactly 11.00 to the sound of some music playing and they were just mind blowing.  The gardens here were gorgeous and very peaceful I could have stayed all day just watching the world go by.  It was Peter himself who masterminded the gardens and the fountains, he was a very clever young man.  He liked peace and tranquility. He left behind an amazing legacy.  Peter the Great was actually responsible for the founding of St Petersburg, which became the new Russian Capital in 1712. This remained the capital of Russia until the war when fearful of invasions  the capital was moved to Moscow where it would not be such an easy target. 

We all said that at the end of two very tiring days we do not believe we would have the strength to do a third day!  

One site I did wish to visit but was just too exhausted, even in the wheelchair was the resting pace of the last ruling family of Russia, including Czar Nicholas, his wife and three of his five children who were executed by the Russian revolutionaries.  I was told that they are not all interred here at this time as the two remaining who had not been found at the time of the other members are still waiting to be laid to rest with their family. Alexi and Maria were only discovered eight years ago and they will join their family in October  of this year. I did ask for pictures to be taken so I do at least know where their final resting place is and can see their tomb.

Faberge

Originally I wasn't bothered about this part of the tour and felt I may just stay in the taxi.  I changed my mind however and I was so pleased that I did.  The eggs were so beautiful, so much work gone into each and every one and we were told the story of them all individually too. One of them held so many sad memories as when it was shown to the public many people died due to the overcrowding that it was never looked on again with affection.    My personal favourite was the one that opened to show pictures of Czar Nicholas and his family, I just loved this one and was sad to see it too as I know not long after this egg was given to his wife they were exiled and eventually killed. 

The tradition of giving these eggs began in 1884 and each egg was fabricated by the jewellers of faberge (he did not make any himself, he designed them ) and each egg held a secret, fascinating.  There were 50 eggs made in total of which 8 are lost from the collection, where are they? - who knows

The Metro

Who would ever have believed a trip to a metro station would be so good.  This metro exhibits many typical Soviet decorations , designs and artworks, making it one of the most attractive and elegant metros in the world.  Due to its geology the metro is one of the deepest subway systems in the world and during the Cold War threat they were built to double up as bomb shelters and many of them still display features such as blast doors.  Stepping onto the moving staircase it seemed to be an endless journey to the bottom but with such beautiful lights and artwork it was fascinating.  No graffiti to be seen on these walls at all was a bonus, what a delight a trip to the metro proved to be!  All in all it only took us a few minutes out of our schedule but it was well spent.  

Stockholm

I would have loved to have visited the Vaasa  museum but the bus would only have allowed around two hours to look around and I knew this was not nearly enough time to enjoy it fully.  When I feel better I shall return and immerse myself in this museum and enjoy the beauty of this ship that sank just twenty minutes from shore on its maiden voyage.  This almost fully intact 17th century ship was built as a warship with 64 guns, more than likely it was top heavy.  It remained at the bottom of the ocean for 330 years until it was found and salvaged in the 1960's.  Even if you find the word maritime boring I doubt you would with this ship.  So beautiful and powerful and such a story to be told, history unfolds when you take your trip around this museum.  I had my appetite whetted by my hubby who took a tour around here when he  visited Stockholm a year ago.  One day I shall see it.  It is on my wish list.  

Copenhagen. 

To be honest I saw very little of this city.  We took the shuttle bus in and I spent about around thirty minutes wandering before I knew I needed to get back.  I caught the shuttle back on my own  and left my husband  in the city with his camera.  Friends spent time in the Tivoli gardens and said how beautiful it was.  Pity I couldn't make it as I should have loved this.  

Eating on board

The food was excellent quality.  I love that there was very much fresh fruit, I do tend to eat a lot of this so always had plenty for breakfast. We were both good in that we didn't bother with lunch after having had a decent breakfast and didn't bother with afternoon tea.  I doubt anyone could have had a complaint about the food or the service, I gave it top marks in my survey.  

We were blessed with two very lovely people at our dinner table.  We had stated we wished to dine at a table for two.  We are not anti social but we knew my condition makes it hard sometimes for me to stay long over meals,  We were surprised therefore to find ourselves at a table for four and we were told we could change the following day.  On meeting our table companions it quickly became clear that we were going to get on like a house on fire and John and Dianne became two lovely people we looked forward to spending time with for our evening meals.  One day I missed dinner, needing a duvet day as stated above but my husband felt in no way out of it with them both.  We have exchanged contact derails so hope to keep in touch.  

Brexit

All the furore of this is behind us now and rightly or wrongly the decision has been taken to leave the EU so now our politicians need to stop bickering like children in a playground and get on with the job we pay them for, running the country. We talked to people for America on our cruise who had been watching the vote and they said they applauded when we got the vote to leave.  They too wished they could be in a similar position in their country but we also spoke to people who wished the vote had gone the other way and now despaired for our country,  Only time will tell but I hope all the racism that has reared its ugly head stops now and we can settle down again.  

Preparing for our Scottish trip

So here we are, home again and a busy time ahead as we are getting ready to begin our tour of Scotland, The Scottish 500 miles it is called and we aim to leave a week on Thursday.  Our friend who had believed he would not be able to join us due to a health issue has been given the green light so he will now be with us, good news this.  Lots to do, not least ensuring my tablets are ordered and collected from the various places they come from.  All my ph family will know just what a task this is, to get four weeks supply all made up and put in their various slots in my medicine cases, if I forget anything then trouble lies ahead.  I have rung the chemist and ordered yet another load so shortly there will be many packets and boxes laying around the table whist I get my head around them all.  My Health care at Home delivery is due on Wednesday so all should be in place by Thursday. 

So much banging is going on outside my window.  The scaffold which has been up for months now whilst we were waiting for the builders to do a job is at last being removed.  Our windows are filthy, and I mean filthy with all the dirt and cement dust from the planks they walk on.  It will be a major task to clean the windows as all the casings surrounding them need to be cleaned very well too.  I feel that I shall give this task to our cleaner when she arrives on Thursday (she has said in the past she will do it) there will be plenty of time for her to clean the house again before our return.  I look forward to looking out of clean windows to the park outside instead of the ugly metal structure that has been my view for so long.

Funny  lady ....... Gone

Sadly we lost yet another person well known throughout the UK for her brilliant sit coms  The Royle Family,  Mrs Merton and The Fast Show.   Caroline Aherne died alone at home as her condition deteriorated more quickly than anyone could have known. Having been born with cancer she has battled all her life with one form or another.  She lost her battle for life to cancer of the lung.  She made many of us laugh until we cried, yet she herself suffered many bouts of depressions and seemed unsure of her place in the world.  I for one will miss her wit and comedy, her one liners were legendary and will never be forgotten.  Rest in peace Caroline.  

Tennis

I did get  to watch a little tennis whilst on holiday when I was resting and saw Andy Murray safely come through to the semi finals.  We have lost number one seed now,  Novak Djokovic so let's hope Andy manages to pull everything out of the bag and win at  Wimbledon again, would love it as I love this young man. 

Izzy

We saw Izzy yesterday as her mom and Chris are house hunting and we went to view one they are thinking of putting an offer on.  So lovely to see her and she was excited to see us again.  A few days before we came home we received a text message from my daughter asking if we would ring when Izzy was home from school as that morning she had cried and said she missed her grandad.  Of course we rang her and was able to FaceTime her so we saw her face light up with joy when she saw her beloved grandad.  She told me she wanted a harmonica so I said I would buy one for her birthday.  Anyway I saw one in a toy shop for the grand total of £2 so I bought it her.  She was thrilled and hugged it to her chest as her face lit up with joy.  We were delighted to see her and I wonder just how I will cope being away from her for almost four weeks!  Thank goodness for face time.  

As I had very little wifi on board the ship I sadly didn't get to keep in touch with you all as I like to.  I  hope you are all as well as can be.  Thank you for reading my rambling blog, can't get my head around things yet, it takes a few days to catch up when being away from you all but I will in he next day or two.  

Take care everyone, please click like if you liked this log and share if your choose to.  I am happy to be back where I can keep up with all the goings on!

Warm love to you all

Carole xxx

I now know where I am going

My study took place over two days, Tuesday and Wednesday.  These are very tiring days and by the time I reached home I did nothing but crash out.  I was gutted not to have met up with Jacqy Harris but she was on her way out as I was on my way in, so frustrating as this was due to an unavoidable flat tyre!  I did get to meet up with Gem Cousins who had the best results ever for her ph.  Going from a stage 4 to a stage 1, her best walk test ever and to know that now they only want to see her once a year, what a result.  This now means that she can hopefully go back to Australia and continue with her medicine regime over there,  I couldn't  be more pleased for Gem. They have also said that they are not now going ahead with the hope of getting her on the transplant list.  Needless to say Gem was ecstatic and I was too for her, I always love to see people improving so much and this gives hope to so many more of our ph friends. 

 I missed out on seeing Steph Ingram as by the time my testings were done and infusion I just needed to get home, I was, as I said very very tired.  I have been in touch with Steph since who said she had a long afternoon and she has to go back for more tests so I hope that nothing sinister is going on and that something can just be tweaked.  Sending warm love Steph. xx

As far as the study is concerned I got it wrong last time when I was convinced that I saw a pouch that was very very dark, I wrongly assumed it was ferritin and that was what was infused.  Imagine my surprise then when I saw a similar bag being delivered yesterday, same colour etc. very puzzled I was.  The infusion is blind, meaning even my nurse did not know what was infused so she was required  to leave the room whilst another one took over and as I walked out of the door I saw a very dark bag, made out of material that they obviously cover the bags that come up!  Now I do believe I had the ferrinject yesterday as my eyes have more red when I lower the lid and this is a sign of more iron in the body than I had before.  I hope it gives me more energy but we shall see.

Talking to my specialist

I saw Charlie who many of you will know on here.  I love Charlie and he is always a very willing listener.  When he asked how I was feeling and I told him of my decline and that I now wish to have the hickman line he listened with a very patient ear.  Having been told I needed to go back on it over eighteen months by two doctors and being told by two others that it was too early I just coped.  End of coping now as I need to push back my levels.  Though my MRI and ECG showed very little change since three months ago I know full well, as indeed do our doctors that our lungs can still be getting more compromised.  Charlie said that if I wished to have it back then he knew there was something not right as I have been on the line before and to want it back means that I really must feel bad and we need to try to stop worsening.

We agreed that I would finish this study that ends in three months.  I don't wish to stop this as it fits in well with my plans for two holidays coming up.  He has said that when I return in September we shall discuss the line fully and go down that route.  I at least know what to expect and know of the benefits it gives us as it helps our lungs and consequently our hearts to recover somewhat.  I have been looking around the house trying to see where we will fit all this extra medical paraphernalia in.  When I had the line before we didn't have Izzy who seems to have taken over every corner of this place with all her cabinets full of crafts,, toys etc.  We shall sort it.

America/Orlando

Once again a bigoted person decided to take the lives of 49 and maybe rising people and injuring around 50.  The stupid thing is his father said he didn't like gay people yet it appears that he was gay himself!  My heart went out to all the families affected by this horrific crime and to America as a whole.  We shouldn't have to endure things such as these happening in the world.  I have hatred for his wife who knew what he was going to do and didn't ring the police.  For her part in this she should be given a whole of life sentence to my mind.  To see the guns in the house, to even go with him to suss the place out makes her culpable.  He was even planning on gunning people down in one of the Theme Parks.  I know there will be some who don't  agree with me but we need to get tougher.  Yes he lost his life, the ultimate price BUT he didn't suffer as many are doing now.  He should have been severely punished with many sufferings, tough ones first and then maybe show others that WILL come after him that it will not be tolerated.  Maybe tying him to two cars and pulling him apart whilst alive.  Barbaric I know, against human man rights I know but what of the rest left grieving,  others coping with terrible injuries  and America as a whole who feel the pain of what this man did.  Some countries have it right with their barbaric punishing ways of ending lives.  He did not care who he hurt, nor did his wife. He certainly didn't care about all the suffering caused in the aftermath of his deadly deed.  He laughed as he gunned them down.  My heart hurts for America. 

Poor little mite

Again America and in a Theme Park  Lake Buena Vista.  A two year old little boy Lane Graves was playing, enjoying splashing about at the edges of the lake with his four year old sister.  A lovely family day out turned into the worst nightmare for any parent when an alligator  snatched the little boy and pulled him into the water.  Though the boys father battled to pull his son free from the grasp of the alligator his fight was in vain and the boy was pulled further away from any hope of a rescue.  

An intense search for this little mite was made and 16 hours later on Wednesday he was found by divers only 10 to 15 feet away from where he was taken, six feet below the surface.  The story is that his body was completely intact which must be a mixed blessing for his parents.  Not that anything can make them feel better right now but I think in time it will offer a smidgen of comfort.  

There were signs up around the lake that said nobody was permitted to swim in the water.  Who would have guessed that just splashing about right on the edge could have brought such a terrible consequence.  My heart goes out to the family.  He looked such a lovely boy and the life he should have had has gone.  I feel very sad right now,  blessings to his family and every who knew him.

Selexipag

Once again when I asked my specialist about this drug on Wednesday his answer came back very swiftly that no, we were not having this drug.  As I said before NICE has said no but there was to be another meeting in June where our specialists were trying to overthrow this.  Has this meeting gone ahead and  and we are still being told NO.  I do not know but I will endeavour to find out.  This would have been the drug of my choice instead of the line but as there is nowhere else to go I will take the hickman line.

Holidays are ahead

I will be unable to post whist away as on the ship the wifi is very iffy I am told and I refuse to pay 55 dollars for a couple of hours of nothing which is often the case.  I am hoping to get updates when we are off the ship but we shall see. 

Packing is going on in earnest today, I hate this, so very stressful.  On this ship, Celebrity Eclipse there are no laundries as there has always been on other ships.  I love these as we dot need to take many things and a quick wash a few days into the holiday and we are all clean again.  So it will be that we shall have to send all our clothes to the ships own laundrette so I need to make sure I have enough clothes to last for a few more days as they rarely cone back the same day.  Underwear will be washed in the cabin and draped over the shower door, I hate this.  Never mind, such trivial things really.  My most important thing is to make sure I have a plentiful supply of my medicines, these are not the type we can find on board or in any port we enter.  I have checked twice to make sure all mine are correct and that my extra supply is all good to go.  I bet I check again later, quite paranoid about medicines but at the end of the day they are our life savers so we need to be. 

Decorated sick bowls

I often take a sick bowl with me when I leave the hospital as I have been known to not tolerate the drive home too well.  Sometimes these bowls are not used but sit in my medicine cabinet in case they are needed.  One was well used the other day when we had Izzy here from school.  I made her a lovely tea but she said she real didn't want any.   She said she had a tummy ache.  After cuddles which she couldn't find a comfortable place and sitting and standing all over the lounge trying to stop her tummy hurting I sat with her on the sofa.  She said she felt sick so grandad leapt to the rescue and handed her one of our sick bowls.  Oh yes it definitely came in handy.  We have a couple more so next time she is here I shall get her to colour them nicely ready for if she needs one again.  Very handy they were!   

Sir Cliff Richard

I read in the news that at last  Sir Cliff Richard has been told there will be no prosecution taking place over the abuse allegations and he rightly slams police who named him a suspect before he had even been interviewed.  One of the young boys who made an allegation could not even describe where the offence took place.  I like Cliff  Richard and feel sad that he will no longer live in his home in the UK.  I feel that many people, on seeing all the furore caused by Jimmy Savile jumped on the band waggon.  Though it is true it has also brought to light many more creeps, Ralph Harris being one there are many more that have been proved to be innocent.  Cliff looks gaunt, who wouldn't be having this hung over his head for the last TWO YEARS,  I wish him peace now and a return to the life he had before all this reared its ugly head.  

Scotland

When this cruise is over we are going to Scotland so we have lots of things to sort out for that trip as we are going in our motorhome.  Sadly our friend who was to travel with us, though in his own motorhome will not now be coming due to having the need for a few tests.  Health is more important but I shall miss him.  All our plans for the holiday were for the three of us and now we are down to two.  Colin and I were talking barbecues etc and planning on what we would cook.  I also know how much he loves potatoes so I was planning some of the meals around him.   In the main though we will eat out but three and a half weeks is a long time to just eat out when it is such fun to cook in the motorhome or outside under the canopy.  Though our friend would have cooked some meals for himself I was having nice thoughts of the three of us cooking outside, well Colin cooking whist they had a glass in their hands and were talking about what the day had brought and what to expect tomorrow.  I am so sorry that he can not be with us on this trip but hope that health for all of us means that we shall do the trip again.  

House hunting

This is sill going on.  We did see an amazing one but all that needed doing inside was just more than we wished to tackle and in truth we would have been mad to take on a garden as large as this one.  My daughter wants to move too so we are looking for two houses, never easy pleasing  everyone.  We are all meeting tonight to look at a house both her and her guy likes so this should be very interesting.  The one we saw last Sunday Izzy was desperate for her mommy to buy it as in one of the bedrooms it had a model mini cooper remote control car.  She thought everything in the show house remained so claimed her bedroom with the toys in.

I shall be thinking of you all whilst I am away, you are all so much a part of my life now.  Generally when I have gone away something happens.  Kath Graham got her transplant, Stacie Pridden got hers.  We sadly lost Hazel Roberts who received her transplant but lost her battle due to uncontrollable bleeding, as a personal friend this was so hard to take.  Please let us hope when I return all is as it should be and nothing bad happening to anyone.

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Warm love to you all

Carole xxx

 

Constant research.

Royal Hallamshire hospital at Sheffield has its own research laboratories and I was pleased then to see in the news this most resent update from them in their bid to find a cure for pulmonary hypertension.  It isn't that long ago that when speaking to a member of my team I was told that there have been some amazing breakthroughs in the search for a cure and/or medicines to hold it back in their own research facility, here is one of them.

Please see the link below about this research opening up a new insight into regulation of gene signalling and PAH. Follow Link below: -

Breakthrough could help sufferers of fatal lung diseasePioneering research conducted by the University of Sheffield is paving the way for new treatments which could benefit patients suffering from the fatal lung disease pulmonary arterial hypertension (PAH).medicalxpress.com

At last the dates for my study appointment

June 14th and 15th are now set in stone for my hospital appointment.  I had better get my trainers on as this is one where part of the study has me riding a stationary bike whilst attached to all the machines.  I feel they will see a decline in my condition since I was last there three months ago.  I know my breathing is worse, and my chest feels tight.  This is one appointment I am so looking forward to.  The MRI may show a change, we shall see as I am to have this on the 15th.  If anyone is around at this hospital on these dates on M2 please let me know and I shall get down from O ward, where I will be to meet up with you.  I have been booked into the same hotel as last time, one just around the corner and as I know it to be comfortable and the food good I am happy.

Will we won't we?

I stayed up until after 3 o clock, well I watched the tv, I was in bed listening to the arguments going too and fro in the Brexit campaign.  I have to say that nobody on the panel gave any clear or concise answers as I believe it is true there ARE no clear and concise answers.  The in campaign admitted that in truth they did not know quite what would happen if we went out.  Some even admitted that even though they wanted us to stay in they do believe we will do well even if we come out.

Food for Thought:-

If you don’t understand what all the fuss is about. Here is the EU put simply.

A son goes to his Dad having saved up some money from his weekend job.
Son “ Dad I’ve saved up £350 pounds to buy the new laptop I need for my college course”
Dad “Well done son, give the money to me and I’ll help you”
Son “Ok now what?”
Dad “I will allow you £185 pounds back less my handling fee of £5 so £180 which you may only spend on a new phone”
Son “But I need a laptop!”
Dad “No, we’ve decided you can only buy a phone and you may only buy a phone from Germany and it must be pink. You must also source the phone within 2 days otherwise I will not release the money”
Son “But it’s my money!”
Dad “I’m afraid you are a member of this family and you must contribute to everyone else’s needs. I will decide how the money is spent”
Son “So what happens to the £165?”
Dad “Well your sister needs a new dress”
Son “She has already had many new dresses”
Dad “We’ve put it to the vote and I’m afraid you’re outvoted”
Son “But I need a laptop to continue my course!”
Dad “My decision is final”
Son “But that’s not fair, will I ever have a say in how my money is spent”
Dad “No, and by the way we’ve got a couple more people moving into your room and you’ll have to pay for their keep”
Son “Well I’m leaving then”
Dad “Don’t be like that lad, we need your money. And if you leave you won’t be able to buy a pink phone from Germany you’ll have to buy one here instead”
Son “I NEED A LAPTOP!”

I do like that we have different cultures here in the UK.  I like that we have different colours too BUT we are in grave danger of losing our own identity in our own country.  This is my thoughts on it and it may well not be yours, indeed I know a few of my friends disagree with me but we all will be able to get our say shortly.

For myself I think Australia has it right the way they control their own borders and the points system for allowing people to live there.  If we left the EU we would be allowed to trade as and where we choose outside the EU, not allowed now.  We would I believe have two or three tough years, but we have weathered years like this before and come through it.  We are the fifth largest economy in the world here in the UK.  We receive back only half of what we send abroad.  I think we can make Britain GREAT again when we can rule this country again.  Sadly I don't believe we will win the vote.  I hope I am wrong.  The problems here will get even greater when you see the countries that are to be allowed in next.  None of these countries have much to offer to the EU so why on earth would we allow them to enter.  Again a huge cost to our purses coming up here I think.  Anyway we all have our own agendas regarding our wish to stay in or come out, my own family is divided so such is life, very interesting though.

More Food for Thought: -

https://www.facebook.com/136101146405483/photos/a.170859326262998.47609.136101146405483/1350021565013429/?type=3

This post made me smule, well an ironic smile regarding the Brexit campaign.  I would love to post something on a similar nature for the STAY campaign but nobody has posted one on Facebook that I can see.  If anyone in the other camp has something please share and I shall post next blog.

Izzy is on her way home!

The short break for her is over and as I write this the motor home will be travelling homeward bound. I was told yesterday that she had made friends with a little girl in the motorhome next to ours.  This little girl is called Lilly and they got on so well that they were even planning to see how they could have a sleepover in one or the others vans!  Of course it didn't come off so there would have been one  unhappy little girl last night I reckon, we shall see.  Once she arrives here Chris, my daughters boyfriend is to come and collect her as mommy is working  Fortunately for me he understands Facebook accounts and will sort out why I have once again got two accounts!  It drives me mad.  So looking forward to getting it straight again.

Update........  she is back, our house looks like a bomb has dropped as clothes all over from the short break away, waiting to be washed or put away.  Her lego has been all split up now so table strewn with it and once again the fishy smell assails my nostrils as I go into the kitchen as yet ANOTHER tuna sandwich has been made, she eats so much of this stuff.  Sticks are in the hallway, she collects so many sticks, in fact her pockets of jackets could belong to any boy too, any young lad would be proud to have such collections as she has in her pockets.

Mohammad Ali

Sadly we have to say goodbye to this amazing boxer who lost his fight to life recently.  He himself lived with a terrible illness Parkinsons disease for over 30 years.  Do any of you remember him going into the ring and saying "fight like a butterfly sting like a bee" ?  The greatest boxer of all time he was actually a gentle giant they say.  I do not  know as I was never into boxing but I am sad to see yet another famous name leave us.  What a year we have had up to press with the deaths of so many.

What were this couple thinking of

In the news these last few days has been the story of the boy left DELIBERATELY in the forest in Japan by his parents.  This forest has bears in it.  The parents were punishing the boy for throwing stones and so they left him for a few minutes.  On their return they couldn't find him.   After searching for a while they had no option but to call the search and rescue.  It took 6 days for this 7 year old boy to be found.  What went on in his head I would not want to know, the terror of being alone in this situation.  He found an old military hut and went in where he managed to keep safe and he had a supply of water but no food.   Each of the days he was lost I opened my paper  to see if he had been found  but as time passed I began to be sure the outcome would be a bad one.  I am so pleased that he is now safe and well.  

Tess Dunn

She did it!  Lots of you reading this blog know of our delightful and beautiful Tess Dunn.  A young girl stricken with ph has had a tough journey.  She didn't however let this deter her and has gone on to get her Masters Degree in music therapy.  A very accomplished musician she so deserves this.  Tess has a great deal of people behind her, not least her mom who always said she knew she could do it and her dad did too, he has sadly passed away but he would have been so proud of his girl.  We in the ph world are so proud of our gorgeous ph sister.   I have posted a picture of Tess and her gorgeous fiancee Terry who encouraged her all the way.  

The day here is beautiful, definitely summer weather so time to all get out your sunhat, sunscreen and go and enjoy it.

Wam love to you all and thank you in advance for clicking LIKE!

One important note to a special guy, Many Happy Returns of the Day 

Carole xxx

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